Oct 26, 2018

36 Questions That Lead to Love

First of all, I would need to give credit to NYTimes for this post as without them posting and without a close friend of mine who shared this with me, I wouldn't have know. These questions are interesting in ways that make you think. It allows both individual to come together and throw out memories, beliefs and principals that make them who they are. It allows both to come together and discuss about things that make them feel closer than before.

Truthfully, I am afraid of some questions as I am not sure what kind of answer should I give that will not hurt anyone. I am afraid that the answers that I gave will not be what the other party wants to hear or perhaps, it's just me, afraid to tell my stories or my beliefs.

We played this game while laying in bed, thinking about the little things and getting to know each other on a deeper level of friendship. Although there are some things that I have known before but to listen to those stories again, on how they managed to make my friend to the person that I cherished today, it's amazing.

There were three sets in there and we are on the second set right now. The second set started in a bar where drinks are on the table and words are spilled out without much thoughts. All that were told came from the heart or deep within the memory bank. I was asked a question.

What is the memory that you treasured most? 
If you know me well enough, the memories that I shared are usually pleasant or embarrassing stories as I feel that is much easier to talk about compared to a treasured memory or a unpleasant memory. I hate it when I have to dig deep to look for a memory that is held close cause these memories usually open wounds that are still wet. When unpleasant memory is call for, it is usually memories that I have kept deep down in the memory bank where even I need a key to get in myself.

Do you have a memory that you would like to erase? Have you watch "Searching", the movie where the teenager girl went missing and her dad were looking for her like nobody's business? Well, it is a good movie. Go watch it if you haven't watch it. There is a part in it where the main character (The missing girl) mentioned that one of her favorite Pokemon is a Pokemon that could help her erase memories. It's pretty cool I would say to be able to erase memories but, it's also sad that there are memories that you would want to erase. Is int' it?

Anyway, we have yet to finish the 36 questions. I wonder when we will get to the end but I guess soon. Maybe over breakfast or lunch.

xoxo,
eunicegm.

Aug 15, 2018

Drifted

Memories. Aren't they lovely? They bring back all kind of emotions, forcing you to recapped the senses and feelings that you felt. Some said that memories is a replay of the mind and each time we replay it in our head, we recreate a different memory.

I don't know what is the appropriate emotions to feel at this moment. I want to bawl out my heart but at the same time I know I can't do that. My mind has been made up so why is this decision so hard to make?

I don't understand why and what is this feelings.

I think I need help.




#nowlistening Dinosaur - Fog Lake

May 27, 2018

Chapter 2 : The Unknown

One more from the brain.
I have no idea why I am in here but I do know there is a pattern when I am in here.
My mind is lonely and my heart itches to pour out it's contents.

______________________


"We should go out someday" "What?" "You heard me, we should go out."

A random speech. An invitation to go out together with no one else but us. Just us. Both of us. With no one else to distract us. A sudden thought. A sudden fear. "Sure, we should."

"Let's do tomorrow. We can go somewhere fancy."

A chuckle. Fancy is not a word to describe her. She is far too much a hobbit with her t-shirt and jeans. Sneakers and slippers are her best friends.

"I don't do fancy but we can go get some good food."

Food works good too. Fancy place scares him. There would be too many people and too many noises to take away her voice.

"Yes, let me bring you somewhere for some good food. It would be so good that you would beg for more." He joked.

____________________

There is so many things that a person wants. Luxury, wealth, health, love and so much more but how many people actually wants something that he or she already has? Can someone's love really grow day by day? Can someone continue to be committed even with days passed by? Can someone stay strong in a relationship when all has become a routine?

Those are questions, asked by a young girl once. There are so many questions in her little mind but no one to give her a answer that satisfy her curious soul. Growing with that questions build a lady who questions everyone's good intention. Every single kindness needs to be repay. Every single action needs to have a equal reaction. How could she accept someone who continues to give and not accept anything from her? How can she learn to take and not to give?

The questions changes day by day. From trust issues, she starts to hallucinate situations where she needs to give up everything to be someone that he wants. Someone that he can proudly share to the world. Someone who differs from her.

There are so many questions in mind. She is afraid of who she would turn to be in the future. She is afraid of the...

Unknown.

_____________________


Ahh - I am stuck on the male character. What does a guy feels when he falls in love? What does a guy thinks? I have no clue given that my friends who fall head over heels are usually the female character.

If you readers out there have any clue, please share some thoughts with me.

xoxo,
eunicegm


Mar 31, 2018

Chapter 1 : The Introduction

I have a story to share. I am not sure if this story would be read by anyone but I would like to start record this story since it's unfolding in my head every awake moment that I have.


It was a warm, sunny day. Dogs and their parents are running around the park. It was all a beautiful, slow rhythm. A group of older women were practicing tai chi and a group of older men were sitting down, talking about their sons and daughter-in-laws. Some were allowing their grandchildren to run around the park without supervision. It was a safe neighborhood. Dogs, children, women and men mingle around with harmony.

She hurried along in that quiet environment. There was no time to pause and say good morning to anyone. It was all in an hurry. She was late. There was no way she could be late on her first few weeks of work. She has to proved to her boss that she is able to be responsible for her adult life. How could she even think of faking a MC just so to avoid being call irresponsible?

Reaching the office, no one even figured that she was late. In fact, it was only 15 minutes late, her mentor said. "Don't worry. Some people come in even later than you" She smiled. Deep down, she knew she had failed something on that day. Although that is normal but deep inside, she knew that was unacceptable behavior. "By the way, we would be expecting some new team members today." He winked. "New fish in here"

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A brand new day. A brand new start in a new place. A good idea to put everything behind and move forward with a new things. A past that no one has to know. A future that is uncertainty but definitely new. That was all on the mind of the main character of this story. He has got home after a long time. It is now time to be somewhere close to ground and try out something new. The morning has been a harsh one, with induction taking their sweet time with everyone else. It is good in someway that he do not need to be rush but he yearn to be able to meet new people and learn anything new that can be possible to learn.

A talk in the room. A friendly gesture by team members. A look. A stare. Someone new.

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There's the new kid in town. Friendly gesture. A look. Back to work. She failed something, remember?


It's past my bed time. I guess here is where I would close chapter 1.

xoxo,
eunicegm


Mar 27, 2018

Is this how it feels being a Millennial?

Hello friends of the virtual world,

Do you know that one of the characteristics of a Millennial is someone who is not afraid to share their lives on social media? Do you know that we are the generation that believes in technology more than human beings? Do you know that Millennial loves the camera and anything that draws attention to themselves?

Well, I am 26 this year - been in the blogging world since high school but it was an on and off relationship. I can't imagine that I am back here after months of going silence but the most comfortable place that allows me to express my emotions at this moment would be this platform, I guess.

Anyway, the topic for today would be ranting about being a Millennial in today's world with all types of generation of people that you have to work with. My career had started pretty smooth I would say. I am lucky and thankful to be accepted to one of the top Oil and Gas company which allows me to have a good name to relay on. I did not had to worry much about finance and I can say that I am in a safe position. I remembered the day when I received the email stating that I would be doing my internship with this company - I was thrilled that I ran up and down the stairs, screaming and laughing.

The first big move away from my comfort zone, it was tough and lonely but being a fresh grad, all that I could think off was the job, friends that I would make, things that I could learn and opportunities that will come by. It was definitely exciting.

Fast forward, 17 months into the job, learned tons of new things, gotten new friends that inspires me, entrusted with different opportunities, received different applause and rewards and here I am - asking myself - what am I doing with my life?


I had The Talk with family, friends and even *sometimes* strangers.

"Should I resign? Should I start my own business? Should I do something exciting? Should I go out more often?"

So many questions that requires my attention that this lovely, bubbly, always excited for a brand new day is slowly giving up on the things that she loved. *I teared up at this moment*

I stopped going out on weekends. I stopped cooking fresh food. I stopped going to the gym. I stopped making appointments with friends. I wake up, stared onto the ceiling, played my phone a little *Read Youtube - The Simpsons*, head into work, and go home super late at night.

There is no productivity nor creativity in my everyday lives. I feel the emotions to throw everything and head out to the big, wide world - but, where can I go?

I decided to write this post because my Uber driver discussed this with me this morning. He is currently serving his Bar and his words

"I don't want to be a fucking lawyer". 

My heart swam with gladness cause at that moment, I was screaming "You are not alone, my brother!" Instead of screaming, I politely said "Yeah, our generation tend to go through this phase in life."

And.. I left.


So, tell me fellow virtual friends - is this what it feels like being a Millennial? Do we tend to give up after a few months of working in the adult world? Do we feel like robots going on our usual routine?

Do leave me some comments or opinions if you would like to share.

xoxo,
Eunice GM