not all people are born lucky. i am not talking from the sense of riches, attractiveness or even smartness. i am talking about having a relationship with God. there are people who are born in a family that puts God last and it's all about the world. there are also families that abused and tortured the blessings of God, children, and throw away whatever the world want to say, and there are the families that lead their little ones to search for God's heart since they were in the womb.
in some way, God has a way to bring us back to Him. in my case, He did gave me some harsh get-back-up lesson in life. it was tough, though the wound is not fully healed but i do know He is in charge.
Only God can turn a MESS into a MESSAGE, a TEST into a TESTIMONY, a TRIAL into a TRIUMPH, a VICTIM into a VICTORY.
after going through major life events, i found out that the emptiness that i had tried to filled since i was young was actually God's presence. if only someone could have brought me to Him earlier but it is not only about me but also about the people around me cause God has a special plan for each and every one of us. i may be going through problems which are tough but it can change someone's life and anything could happen when God is in it.
i still remembered the first time when i found peace in His presence. i was crying away on the floor, asking for the pain to be taken away when a wave of peace just came. it was comforting and when i had cried enough, i got up from the floor and then i saw something which had always been with me since then.
For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you. Isaiah 41: 13
this verse was stuck on my wardrobe for the purpose of "decoration" but during that moment, it was like He was speaking directly to me through those simple words. since that moment, i know i am safe, and it was that moment too that i tried to put a stop to the things that are wrong in His eyes.
it was tough at first cause i was so used to being in the world but i am glad He is always there to back me up each time i fall. i am glad but at the same time sad that i had gone through what i had been through. without those experience, i would not have be where i am right now and though it hurts, it's healing.
He is my Creator, Redeemer, Provider, Healer, Deliverer, King, Friend, Keeper of hearts, and Savior of souls. He is wonderful, beautiful, loving, gracious, and faithful.a song to share.